Thursday, January 19, 2006
feeling so restless these few days.. sch started 2 wks alr but i still cant settle down to study; tutorials lagging already and always not paying att during lectures. tskk time to do something..
received a sms from D..dunno whether i shd juz give a short reply or ignore the msg. muz be like gou gou ignore these ppl but i always end up feeling bad not replying. after some hesitation i replied him the "norm" way so as to avoid some irrelevant qns from him.yeah replied one msg after another and started to feel irritated when he mentioned about what happened back at workplace etc..told a white lie that im gg to bed and finally.. end of msging...
haha finally got to see my teacher on monday!! as usual i was worried for the whole weekend and on mon.Etude was okay; passed but Chopin Ballade still as horrible as before.Havent been putting in effort for that piece...haha escaping from reality.i was made to memorise the 1st few pages of the piece on the spot!! wasnt even familiar with the notes how to play from memory?! but i think he made it possible even though im v tone-deaf; cant get the right notes. he'll be having a students' concert coming June and i MIGHT be the performer playing Ballade.only 4 months to prepare!?! he'll probably monitor my progress from next lesson onwards to see if im up to standard...only chance to perform~ have to divert my attention to prac. he said it's a good way to motivate me to prac harder. Shall not disappoint him then!!
Reb@
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